The last few months have been pretty interesting in life. Steve decided that he no longer wanted to be with me, the reason I probably will never know but I have my assumptions....but it really actually was a favor to me because I didn't realize how much of myself I had given up. It's like I was given a new page, a fresh start, to get back to who I am. I feel like as crappy as the situation was in the beginning I have emerged an even better and stronger person. My parents have been absolutely amazing through this, their love and support is completely incredible and I wouldn't be here today if I didn't have that. I also have to say my friends are equally as incredible and patient and I love them to pieces. As my friends have told me, I was a muddled down version of Stacey until recently, now I am back to the awesomely vivacious person I should be.
So what am I up to now that I am single you ask? Well after some soul searching and finally detaching myself from the emotions and feelings from my break up; I am pretty much doing anything and everything outdoors related. I got back into running and have finished the last three 5Ks with personal best times. I also signed up for two half marathons, one in October, the other in January. I took up softball again as well as beach volleyball and just upped the number of boot camp classes I do every month. On top of that I just planned an amazing vacation to visit my best friend in Florida, something I have wanted to do for the longest time but wasn't able to before.
I feel like all that I am doing is truly a real testament to who I am and what I want. I realized that I always end up losing a lot of myself when I am in a relationship because I go for guys that make me complacent, not men that make me happy yet also challenge me to be a better person. I need someone who like me, challenges and pushes the envelope and constantly wants and strives to be a better, more awesome person. I also realized the whole we are super different this is awesome thing doesn't work either, I need someone who likes things I like. That way you have things you can do together that you both enjoy. I don't need someone who likes ABSOLUTELY everything that I do but there definitely needs to be some common ground in the picture. I also need someone who stands up for themselves and what they believe in, passive guys don't really work for me. I need someone to call me out when I am being a brat and put me up on that pedestal I deserve to be on! I know for a fact that I went through everything because God knew I could handle it and He only gives you things you can handle. Boy did it suck getting to that conclusion but I really truly believe that is the case. I know I am going to find someone that loves me for me, someone that doesn't run when the going gets tough. And if not, then it's not in the cards for me. As much as I am a relationship kind of girl, I don't need a man to define what or who I am. So I am excited to see what the future holds for me. I feel like things can only get better from here!
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